Been There, Done That

I have been really and truly enjoying motherhood since day one, well truthfully as a whole since maybe the end of week one or beginning of week two (once we started formula since I wasn't producing anything). Part of me thinks that since it was difficult to get to motherhood that God blessed me with an easy child baby. The older he gets the less easy he is. Don't get me wrong, he is a passive soul (much like his father) but he is definitely at the beginning of tantrums when he doesn't get his way or when he feels like it. We are taking it all in stride though, because even his tantrums are still cute to us....for now ;-)
Once I got pregnant with E I heard from so many people how their bodies kicked in and started working properly once they gave birth and they didn't have to get help to have baby #2. I held onto a tiny piece of hope that that would be us. Once E turned 1 we decided to stop preventing and see what happened. BIG.FAT.NOTHING. Turns out, I am not like all those other people - my body did not get the message after all. While I was a little bummed about not being able to do things ourselves (and for free) I have at least come to the conclusion that at least we know this time around that we CAN have a baby and what it takes to get there.
So the journey to becoming a family of four has begun. After speaking with my OB a few weeks ago I was once again referred to the wonderful Dr. R. Consultations get to be skipped this time around (yay!) and the drug regiment was started after a brief phone conversation with Dr. R's fabulous nurse. I am almost 2 weeks in and had forgotten how crappy these meds make me feel. Hub & I are supposed to go to Mexico for a belated anniversary trip next week so I am hoping that I actually feel good enough to enjoy it....AND that I don't get a visitor while we're there - THAT needs to wait until we get back so I can get an ultrasound on day 1 to prepare for IUI again!! I am excited and stressed at the thought of expanding our family - but becoming a family of 3 has been so freakin' awesome that how can becoming 4 be anything less? I am so in love with my sweet E and being his mother - THIS is my purpose.
While all of this has been going on we have also been dealing with family troubles. My dad is having some health issues, fairly big ones, and that has hit hard. E will be staying with them when we are gone next week so I know that will be good medicine for him right before his surgery. Hoping and praying the recovery is easy on him, as he then turns around and has another surgery for a nerve problem in his neck that is causing him to lose his grip - one week before Christmas! Things will be interesting this year - that recovery is supposed to be pretty hard. Anyone reading this - please stop and say a prayer for him (and for my mom/family) - that God guides his surgeon's hands and that recovery isn't just awful. And for a VERY successful surgery (especially the first one!!) It is going to be a busy and probably long holiday season for our family, but hopefully next year will be a healthy one for all of us - and maybe we will have a new member of the family around.......you never know!!